Decesions

If my whole day had a theme, it would have to be on decisions. Decisions I am free to make can alter the course of my day. One of the first decisions I had to make was how to carry a bunch of stuff for my project to class because it was a "work day." Now, instead of trying to stuff everything into my large bookbag, i opted for my messenger laptop bag and a brown paper bag with handles. I had no idea why I thought this was a good idea to begin with, at the end of my mile walk to class, I didn't think it was a good idea, and when thinking about how I had to walk back home with it, I thought it was an even worse idea. I made it all the way home with a pulled back muscle, a sore spine, and an arm that I couldn't bend from holding too much weight for too long, and I learned that I would never do that again. I would make better thought out decisions in the future. Another decision that affected this walk: shoes. Yes, I chose the ones that give me a blister on the back of my heel on my right foot. I can't believe I chose this over my slightly damp shoes. Stupid me. These situations and my decisions only hit the top of the iceberg. There are lots more, and they go deeper than these. Here's the short of it: my professor got upset at me because I didn't work on my project since monday and basically got in trouble, I could have went into an anxiety attack and do nothing to work on it in class, or I could have figured out what I can do here and now and to get things done during class time (which I did). For my exam in history I could have gave up, but I tried my hardest for two days. I failed it, but I'm sure I answered all the slide identification questions right (which is the hardest for me, so it's a personal win).

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I need a break from cramming loads of information into my brain...overload, overload! Anyways, I was thinking about how much more there is to these designers/artists I'm being forced to learn the names of, and facts that don't really give me anything to relate to. I know they must be significant, but what I really want to know is how they have touched people--how they have impacted the world. I don't just want to know what magazine they started, but how it made a difference other than it's appearance if it made one. I don't just want to know what companies they started or worked for and identify what was produced, but the minds and visions of it's people. I want to know the deeper stuff. I don't just want to memorize stuff that will later on be forgotten, but i want to take it in and internalize it and be moved by it. I want to be inspired. Slowly I am learning about these people my way...by doing my own research and discovering their ideas, visions, and advice. So far it's David Carson and Stefan Sagmeister. Now they are much more than just a name with some facts next to some bullets in my notes which i try to memorize.

About the picture. It is for my imaging assignment in which I have to do a magazine cover for a social issue: freedom of speech. This was what I was thinking...can we really say what we want when we want?

I think people are scared into silence if they know it or not, and for those who are brave enough to do something radical or say something to stir up something, only then is there a chance for change