I Need A Break

I just want everything to pause while I take some time off to go do something I'm passionate about, and then come back and resume where I left off. I need some time to engage with that part of me. Songwriting and storytelling and exploring and adventures. I need it so desperately. Cause right now I'm suffocating and I'm a mess cause I long for that part of me. I've been feeling missing for some time. Except for those moments when I'm in the car and I sing along until I almost lose my voice. It's the freest I feel, and God's the only one who can hear. It's one of the few times my heart is happy and I smile. The only problem is that I'm by myself, but I still view it as joy. Hopefully I will be able to list other moments...I need more.